Wednesday, April 5, 2017

Living In the Moment: A Blissful Morning

Not today, alas. But Sunday morning I remember being very present in the moment. We invited friends to go to breakfast with us but no one was available. And it ended up being just perfect, just the three of us. A complete family unit.




A reason to live in the moment.
I went to Bethany's memorial last week. Incredibly moving.
I miss you, my friend. 


Amelie loves this game. Of frowning and looking through her eyebrows, practically, then
tipping her head back as far as it will go. Over and over again.
No idea why she does this but I know one day soon she will stop and soon I'll forget she
ever did it.

That says "happy birthday Annabelle heart Calliope"
In case you can't read kindergarten-ese. I'm a little bit obsessed with it.

"Butterflies and Flowers"


Embryo Donation Update: They've Shipped! Transfer Date is in Two Days

The title pretty much says it all. We finished our paperwork and the embryos shipped to the west coast last week.

Leslie also started her medications for preparing her lining last week and started progesterone shots three nights ago.

If all goes according to plan, one of my frozen embryos will be transferred to her uterus in just two days!

The closer we get to transfer date, the more certain I am that this is the right plan for me. And us. The more confident I am that my embryo(s) belong with her. That my childbearing days are over.

But I'm very excited for us to stay close, for me to be an auntie and for my children to be "super cousins" to this hoped-for new baby. I hope Leslie and I will develop a more comfortable and multi-dimensional friendship over time. Right now I think we are both a little awkward in figuring out boundaries and commonalities. I'm thrilled to hear her progress reports but at the same time am wary of texting with questions of how she's doing for fear of overstepping. I imagine she struggles with some of the same issues.

Now I'm just praying for good news as quickly as possible. She's been through so much. I would so love for this to work the first time!!!