Monday, March 16, 2015

Thirty-Eight Weeks

I gained a pound. At last. Putting me at twelve pounds gained, new territory for me. And I'm eating a ton, suddenly, so I bet I keep gaining/

My stomach feels sort of bread-loaf-shaped nowadays, though it looks the same in the mirror -- big and round. This past week I notice that I'm leaning back as I want, to counterbalance the giant weight on my front.

I'm really feeling great, overall. More tired on weekends when I'm lounging than on the days when I go to work. A little out of breath on the stairs, that sort of thing, but nothing major. I feel very lucky.

I'm definitely more zen now (except for last night, when I wanted to cry for no apparent reason) than a week ago about the timing of the birth -- meaning I'm not so anxious to start -- but I do wish that I could know when it was going to be, even if that was just to know I would go very late. Where's that crystal ball when you need it?

I have so very many Braxton Hicks contractions and little cramps, and sometimes I wonder if labor is starting, and I get excited... but it's not about meeting my little girl. It's just about the limbo ending. And I feel kind of bad about that. That I'm not giving a lot of thought to this person who is about to enter my life. I guess it's just all so unfathomable that I don't even know how to think about it?


  1. I'm glad I'm not the only almost second time mom that feels this way. I think it is because motherhood turned out to be so much more spectacular than I could have ever imagined....that I can no longer even comprehend the idea of having two children!

    You look great, and C is obviously super excited about her baby sister! I hope these next few weeks continue to go smoothly, and you don't have to wait too long to meet Tree Leaf!

  2. I think birth is something you can think about any darned way you want! I so remember all that anxiety in the last couple of weeks...the only thing I like about pregnancy is there's no way it can go on forever. It does seem like you've had a pretty uneventful one this time, though - here's to an equally uneventful birth, too!

  3. You look great & I love that photo!! The waiting & not knowing has to be hard. The end is in sight...hoping for a calm & peaceful birth

  4. You look gorgeous and I'm so excited for you and Calliope! Sending happy birth vibes your way!

  5. You really do look fabulous.

    I, too, had a hard time imagining life with another child - and now I can hardly remember when it was like before the second one came along. Enjoy these last few weeks (days?) as a family of 2. Having two kids is going to be hard, but it's also going to be even more wonderful than you've ever imagined.