I've heard that women in their second trimester feel fantastic.
So I've been awfully concerned about how I've been feeling. I posted to the SMC (that's Single Mothers by Choice, in case you forgot) Pregnancy listserve, worriedly asking for advice about why I'm so tired.
I think I was pretty much... laughed at. Gently, of course. With love.
Apparently, this baby growing enterprise can be, like, waaaaaaay tiring.
It all makes sense, but I wish somebody had explained that to me before I got my hopes up and, silly me, thought I could accomplish things like I did back, pre-pregnancy.
I called in sick for tomorrow. I feel like I'm still not recovered from Friday and Saturday's busy days... and the cumulative effects of last week, in general.
How am I possibly going to survive another 19 and a half weeks of this?
I was feeling like twenty weeks was such a major milestone... and it is... but now it's occurring to me, my god, I'm only halfway done! I have twenty more weeks of this... and right now is as good as it's going to get?
Please don't get me wrong, I'm ever so grateful to be having this baby girl. I still can't get over my good luck.
But the reality of being pregnant is scaring me. What if I don't want my belly to keep getting bigger? What if I am scared by how soon, already, my feet start hurting (this morning, while showering, after just shaving my legs for example)? Is there some loophole wherein I could still have the baby, but not have my body become completely and totally foreign?
And exercise... I'm scared it's becoming a thing of the past. I'm just too tired all the time. Who am I becoming???
Advice and encouragement eagerly sought from those that have survived this.