Resolution

So sleep still isn't where I want it to be.

Calliope was doing so great, had gotten to sleeping from 6:30 pm -- 5 am, then a 2 minute nurse (yeah, I time it... with a stopwatch), then back to bed until 6:30 or 7 am.

The wake up time was getting later and late, so my plan was to wait a few more nights, to see if it might get to 6 am or later.

Then she got sick, and all that went to pot. The first night, she woke up for the first time at 9:30 pm. And was up for two hours.

This is not a good way to start the night.

Because of course that was not the only waking.


Anyway, long story short is that sleep is not where we (and when I say "we," I mean "I") want it to be.

Yada yada yada.

You have heard this from me about a hundred times already. Sorry.

So here's the thing.

I long for weekends, when I can sleep in until, you know, seven. And then I nurse her in bed, and delay getting up for as long as I can until, you know, seven thirty.

And then I feel sort of crappy and tired and lazy all day as a result.

So here's what I'm wondering.

What if I got up at the regular time, more or less, which is 5:45 on the days I exercise. What if I got up and exercised and showered so that when Calliope woke up, I'd already be done with that and all fired up and energized?

You know that feeling when you're outside, nice and early, on your way to work, and you think, "gosh, if only this was a weekend, I could get so much done?"

Only you never, ever have that feeling on weekends, because it's already mid-day by the time you get outside?

So this is my challenge.

Can I force myself to get up early on a weekend, exercise, shower, and face the day as if it were a work day... only a day filled with fun?

Would that be awesome?

Or would I only get more and more tired because of never catching a break and sleeping in?

But maybe knowing I can sleep in leads to going to bed later, and thus, more fatigue?

All this to say... I'm resolving to try it.

Ack.

Let's see if I can make it happen.

Tomorrow, Good Friday for the Catholics (and Christians?) in the world, I am off.

Wish me luck.

Good night.